H.o.p. at the Window – 2004
2006
20 w by 15 in h
Digital Painting based on photo by artist
copyright J Kearns 2006
H.o.p. at the window a couple of years ago. Took me two years to decide whether or not to leave the dirt on the window and how light to go with this.
Well, partly true.
I had wanted to do this painting and had started once and didn’t like it and scratched it, undecided on the two questions above. I recently came across it again and decided it was time to do it.
And speaking of music, it’s the 5th week on the Billboard Hot R&B/Hiphop Single Sales chart for Heaven Davis’ song Regrets (Marty produced) and it’s up to the #4 spot. Continuing congratulations to Heaven. Doesn’t get old saying it.
Something not to do in a confined space with your child is play a variation of Blind Man’s Bluff. Which we were doing yesterday morning, my eyes were closed, and I ended up tripping backwards over a toy and usually I’m good at catching myslf in such situations but that’s when I can see and being deprived of that sense I ended up landing in a wagon we use by the door for holding H.o.p.’s little scooter, in which happened to be also a big megablocks (legos) pirate ship and whacking the back of my head hard against the wall. One of those, “Oh, I didn’t intend for this to happen” moments, and there’s no taking it back, and you know you’re going to be in considerable pain for a while. I still have a huge bump on my noggin and a slight headache and the muscles hurt and I’m green with bruises from landing on the pirate ship and scooter and (ironically) on H.o.p.’s helmet that he uses on his scooter.
And that hurts tmost of all, that I landed on a helmet when whacking my head in the wall.
Ow, ow, ow, ow, ow.
As I noted in a post below, what particularly rubbed me the wrong way about how the children were used in Jill Greenberg’s art was denying the reality of their emotions in order to provoke a certain feeling in adults. Denying the reality of their emotions, reforming them into allegory, and saying this had no effect on the children whatsoever.
It is not just an art issue. It is a matter of how children are viewed by society, which means it is also a matter of how different constellates of peer groups will treat those who are viewed, for whatever reason, as living beneath a comparable status. In certain contexts this conceit has been called The White Man’s Burden.
I’ve written about this in a number of posts.
The child to whom you offer the lollipop, then deny them that lollipop and take their feelings and deny them even those and resculpt them for allegory, that child is being treated as an inferior and that they dont’ own their experience, instead it is owned by those upon whom they are dependent and it is plastic and pliable according to one’s whims. “But the child is an inferior,” some people may not say but will certainly believe.
No, the child is not an inferior being. The child is a child and that’s all there is to it. Childhood is not an inferior state. They are living as they should, as children. That a child is dependent doesn’t mean they are inferior.
But then, this is how many people choose to live, rating themselves and others on a continuum of less or more inferior. Many people see nothing wrong with it all. For them it is reality.
Stone Bridge has written a post Jill Greenberg and the boundaries of art, expanding and digressing on a comment that he’d made here.
It’s interesting that the apologiae for Greenberg in the comments to Hawk’s original post all resort implicitly to the the romantic cult of the artist as Nietzschean ubermensch. Strange that this (you’d think) archaic religious system has survived intact, in all the arts, from the late 19th century through modernism and whatever chapter and verse of post-postmodernism we are living through now. Its persistence probably deserves some sort of attention.
Presuming to judge another artist’s ethics can be risky, but here goes.
Boingboing points to this blog post of Thomas Hawk, photographers’ rights activist, in which he writes on the photography of Jill Greenberg. In specific, her photos of children crying. Seems she admits that she manipulates the children into crying, doing things such as offering lollipops then taking them away. She provokes tears. Thomas Hawks believes this is unethical and damaging to the children. Some people agree and some people see no problem with it…all for the sake of art.
Me? I don’t like it. I can’t imagine doing this to H.o.p. or my nieces or nephews. I can’t imagine doing this to anyone’s child.
I have a photo of H.o.p. crying, which was taken during a profoundly out-of-control tantrum, but the photo was in context of the moment. In fact, it was taken to end the moment. Somehow I got the idea to ask if H.o.p. wanted me to take a picture of him. It was well over a year ago and somehow in the context of the tantrum it occurred to me that it was the just right thing to possibly do, that he may need to see himself as he was. He said yes, and I took the picture and he looked at it and the tantrum ended. It was a one time situation. I have kept the photo and occasionally have looked at it and thought it was, despite the circumstances, a beautiful picture of him, but it was a private situation and I don’t think H.o.p. would appreciate me turning it into art.
We didn’t have a videocamera when H.o.p. was young. Still don’t. But we borrowed one a couple of times and one of those times was to record H.o.p. walking around in his first real pair of shoes. He was 9 months old and was pulling himself up and walking using furniture as support. We were getting ready to go on the road and he needed, I figured, a good pair of shoes to help him in his attempts to walk. I thought they’d help stabalize him, thought they were help on the tour bus. So we got him his shoes and I put them on his little feet and I pulled out the borrowed videocamera to record the momentus event of his walking around in his shoes. I had this silly idea, like I said, the shoes would lend support. Instead, they hampered him. H.o.p. was attempting to walk toward me, using the sofa as support. At first he was excited, Marty was right behind him, and you can hear me talking to H.o.p. and he’s all smiles and happy. Then his features become perplexed, he’s becoming anxious. I am holding the camera still, recording him, and he’s becoming more exasperated, and finally it occurs to me that his shoes, those new shoes, they are hampering him, holding him back, and I mentioned something on camera about it, but I waited to do anything about it because I had the idea he would get used to them in a second and it would be a passing thing, that the shoes were good for him.
It rips my heart out every time I see that stupid video. I tell myself, “Put down that damn camera now and get those shoes off of him! He obviously doesn’t like them one bit. Why couldn’t you see that at the time?” It rips my heart out that I can’t go back and redo it, hand Marty the camera and take off those damn shoes.
We have another video of him when he was maybe about a month old and he was doing some damn cute things. We were borrowing the camera and were going to have to return it the next day so of course we wanted a movie of him. But whenever I pointed the camera at him he started crying and I would go, “Ooooh,” and cut the camera off and that would be it for the moment. A couple of weeks ago H.o.p. and I were watching that video (we did finally get some okay shots) and he started crying in it and, oh, that was my baby crying, and even as I, over eight years ago, cut off the camera, I had to reach over and give H.o.p a hug because that was my baby crying. “But, mom, I’m all right. That was me crying as a baby,” he said. And I said, “Yeah, I know but I still have to give you a hug.”
It’s not that those two times are an exception. I know I’ve injured H.o.p.’s feelings many times.
And it’s not that I’m unwilling to experience pain for art. Writing is hell for the most part. I put myself through a lot, writing. It isn’t fun. And I don’t just mean that writing is a pain. I mean it can be very painful emotionally, imagining situations for the story, putting yourself in that place and writing through it.
So my not liking that video of H.o.p. in which his shoes are hampering him isn’t because I don’t want to experience my own pain upon seeing this, but when I look I keep feeling those shoes weighing him down and he was feeling those shoes weighing him down and it was frustrating, it was confusing for him, he was just discovering walking and here he had on these confusing shoes, and it hurts watching the confusion on his face. I want to free him of it.
Okay. So let’s say you are the witness of a terrible event and you take a photo, say, of a child injured in war, sobbing, or a child witnessing the horrors of war and sobbing. If it rips out my own heart I can imagine showing this to other people with the hope it will stir sympathetic emotion and make them want to stop the pain, to stop the reason for that pain, just as when I’m watching that video of H.o.p. I want to yell, “Stop that camera and take off that boys’ shoes!” That’s one thing.
But, hell, setting up a child? Putting them in the studio, handing them a lollipop and then taking it away? May sound like nothing, but it is.
I showed H.o.p. the pics of the children crying. He asked what was going on. I told him that a woman takes pics of children crying and to make them upset she does things like offering them something and then taking it away. I asked H.o.p. what he thought about it. He looked a little unsure. I could see his brain telling him that he’s an artist and here I was asking him what he thought of what another artist was doing and this was causing a push-pull because he was having to think about what the artist did, not just the artist’s technique.
I said, no, really, what do you think about it, I want to know.
“I think it’s mean,” H.o.p. said.
I asked H.o.p. how he’d feel toward someone who did that.
“I wouldn’t trust them after that,” H.o.p. said.
Children are given many reasons to not trust. They happen every day. But as far as the child knows this is real life, it’s not an acting job, real emotion is being evoked and recorded, and that emotion is betrayal. It’s betrayal inspired by the artist. The object may be a simple little lollipop, but it is still betrayal, that child is in a situation of dependence upon the artist and it is a critical event for the child. Even if it is just a lollipop.
Jill’s husband says the child’s parents are present, that many are children of friends and are over for playdates and don’t seem the worse for wear. He says this is how it’s done inovies, in media. But the emotional life of a child is not utterly transparent, you may not know for another twenty years exactly how the child felt. And even then you may never know how the child really felt because the child may convince themselves along the way that it was all right. The adult said it was all right after all.
Uh, except I think it’s pretty transparent in these pics how the child did feel. Which is the point. Getting pics of those feelings of betrayal. That anguish.
I don’t think what Jill is doing is respectful of the child, don’t think it is respectful of the child as a person.
Jill Greenberg’s website is titled Manipulator. Posh site.
I don’t see a portfolio of Jill provoking adults to tears and rage. Why doesn’t she give it a go with consenting adults iinstead?
Update: A commentary on the art at Jill’s website states,
It will take two years to purge the photos of screaming children from her upcoming exhibition End Times from your head. The artist uses the wailing distress of the children as an allegory for the deepest fears of the human species as a whole and draws on the vocabulary of Christian millennialism, conspiracy theory culture and doomsday environmentalism to title the work. A redhead boy looking heavenward, his neck in a St. Sebastian pose, is titled, “nucular (sic)”. A girl emerging from her weeping looks to heaven for either hope or retribution in “Unless”. Sometimes titles synch with the pose, other times meaning is more oblique. Not only are the images compelling, but Greenberg burrows deep to extract difficult conversation about the current American moment.
C’mon. This is fucking lame. Like children’s emotions don’t belong to themselves and aren’t important in and of themselves but are just fodder for adults inclined to allegory. *That* is a problem, denying the honest emotion of the child in context and resculpting it into allegory. It’s just as much a problem as anything Jill may say she’s trying to expose. It’s dishonest.
Let me try that out on H.o.p., making him cry and then saying to him, “H.o.p., now you are allegory for the deepest fears of the human species”. See how that flies.
It won’t take two years to purge Jill’s photos from my head. But I’ll always remember the above lame excuse for attempting to provoke feelings in adults. And that, yes, is child abuse. Manipulating children, denying the reality of their emotions in order to provoke a certain feeling in adults, is indeed emotional abuse.
Isis
(Spaghetti Junction Isis)
2006
20 w by 9 in h
Digital Painting based on photo by artist/collage
copyright J Kearns 2006
Based on a photo first seen in my scary Halloween on spaghetti junction post which was just used there to document our being stranded on spahettin junction. But I was thinking when I took the photo not only that I would hopefully never be again in such a position to take such a photo, stranded on the side of spaghetti junction, I was also thinking that I was going to do a painting and began one that evening but set it aside for a long while. My focus could be on the relationship some people have with characters in movies and other media, of also what they see or seek in “stars” in movies and other media dieties. But really it was just a plain old meditation on the myth of Isis. Now, the fun (or distressing) thing about Isis or Osiris or Christ etc. is one could title any picture with the spirit name and meaning would ultimately and many times appropriately be derived. I could do a pic of my bookshelf and call it Christ and meaning would commence to happen. Which isn’t a matter of gaming. Just is.
But, Iisis is indeed here as I borrowed the eyes of Sandro Milo, who played Isis in Giulietta degli spiriti and plugged them in here.
Phoenix Palms, 2005
2006
20 w by 13 in h
Digital Painting based on photo by artist
copyright J Kearns 2006
Went for an old postcard colors look with this one. My computer is still screwing up and scratched this image for me once. I’d saved it and when I opened it the next day one of the layers was gone and a primary layer was 3/4 covered over with what looked like an overlay of black as if done in absolutely uniform horizontal strokes of one of the larger wet media brushes. So it was not completely saturated but was still ruined. Don’t know what in the world happened except but apparently something fouled when I was saving it. Fortunately I didn’t have to start completely over again. The palms and wall and cactus were intact on a couple of other layers, but the sky and part of the evergreens had been ruined and the ground was gone.
4th week on the Billboard Hot R&B/Hiphop Single Sales chart and Heaven Davis’ Regrets is at 11.
They’ve started (Heaven and Marty, with Khari Simmons and Chris Burroughs) preproduction on her next album, working out grooves and writing material. Khari Simmons was featured recently in Bass Player magazine.
Was just listening to Russell Gunn’s Krunk Jazz on which Khari is playing. F— amazing stuff. Chris Burroughs, drums, plays in Russell Gunn’s Bionic, small group. I’m not sure if he’s playing on the song, Bionic, also featured at the above Myspace page. Wish I did know. That song is another one to listen to. Incredible music. This is some of the hottest jazz, most feeling jazz I’ve heard in a long time. I have a peculiar test for jazz. I don’t think I’ll even say what that test is (don’t think to guess what it is because I assure you that you never will). But it passes with ten out of ten stars.
Chris Burroughs was on the gigs this weekend with Heaven and played the show opening for Buddy Guy, with the big band.
Japanese national public television gave the Japanese Domo-kun in gratitude for their contributions.
I can’t locate a pic of her right now, but Georgia Public Broadcasting most frequently gives us someone named Karen thanking us during the telethons and cheering us on to give and give more. Karen is fuzzy in a Southern drawl, hairspray and big fake eyelashes kind of fuzzy way, but she’s no cute and cuddly Domo. Try getting Karen to pick up a toy snake and fart green gas. It ain’t gonna happen.
Domo is the latest stop animation treat around here.












