Archive for February, 2006

Now for the mechanics

Wednesday, February 1st, 2006

Well, I think this will be the cover.

I need to adjust the image over a little to the left. Did several covers before deciding on this one. Did the penguin also first without the halo and then decided, nah, put in the halo.

And so there too is the decided upon title with its absurdly long alternate.

I did catch the typo on “raining” but not until after I loaded up these images.

The cover as a whole kind of brings in the elements of film and comic books that are running themes.

Don’t ask me why I decided to plop my middle name in there. The “Maria” seemed to go nicely above the iconic penguin.

The script also looks good to the left or right instead of centered but I decided upon centered.

Now for the mechanics. This I’m not looking forward to because it’s a 700 page manuscript and I’m counting on having problems uploading and everything I’ve read says it’s better for it not to be in sections, but if you have a long manuscript you may need to break it into sections. And I’m undecided yet as to doing the wrap-around cover or the front and back. I worry that there’s more room for error on their part with the wrap-around cover. Maybe not. But I don’t recollect if the title is printed on the side with the front and back. Guess I should do the wrap-around. Which I’ll leave blank on the back, only gray. No description.

I am still undecided as to whether to have chapter titles.

Hmmmmmmmmm. Now I’m thinking instead of a dark gray background I need to go with a background that’s the same gray as the road.

If you’ve got any comments feel free to leave.

Update: All right. It sucks. The title sucks. I’ve always been horrible with titles. I’m changing it.

In print, Unending Wonders of a Subatomic World

Thursday, February 2nd, 2006

OK. See the sidebar. Big sell job. Shameless. Do I expect any of the blog’s readers to purchase this book? No, so don’t feel guilty for not buying. Not that you would. But hey now that it’s in print I’m going to post about it because I have no other sales strategy at the moment. What does that mean for this poor book? Well, it means it is quite a rare find.

If you’d like to read the description, be forewarned, I know zero about selling. Haven’t a clue.

When you look at the cover, imagine the road passing under your wheels, the Adagio of Bach’s Concerto in F playing in the background, the penguin ever in the distance, floating above the horizon. Or uhm imagine it for two minutes and forty-nine seconds cut up into ten parts and split over the space of two hours, because if this book was a movie those would be ten of its scenes sculpted for those who couldn’t begin to sit through an old Wim Wenders film.

* * * * * * * * * *

Unending Wonders
of a
Subatomic World
or
In Search of The
Great Penguin

by Juli Maria Kearns

If you don’t need a description, go, BUY HERE!.

If you’re in need of a description, try this INTRO out:

Once upon a time there was an Antarctic Emperor penguin that was mailed to a cold place in Wyoming called Little America. This cold place was named Little America after Admiral Richard Byrd’s ice-shingled, circa 1933 Ross Shelf expedition camp down where the Emperor penguins roamed, which was how someone got the brainy idea to mail a penguin to Wyoming in the first place.The Emperor penguin died en route. But that’s all right. Its carcass was preserved, not on ice but in glass, destiny conspiring with destination to make the bird a fun curio for the Ross Shelf’s foster child, the Little America haven for travelers bested by Big Daddy America’s comprehensive sea to shimmer shining sea gluttony in Wyoming’s southwestern desert.

Over three feet in height, he might have been big for an Emperor penguin, but he was no colossus. Well, maybe in spirit he was. Could have been. People might have said about him, “That penguin sure stands tall for a penguin.” We think it’s more likely that what has been most frequently said about him is, “Oh, it’s DEAD!”

Chance Hope had wanted all her life, more than anything, to share the Great Penguin with someone else. Maybe even someone who would understand. That’s the kind of love and good will that the Great Penguin had inspired in Chance over the years. And face it, Very little inspire that kind of love and good will in everyone. A lot of wars have been fought in the name of very little.

No war had been fought in the name of the Great Penguin, though no two people had ever seen it in the same light.

Yet it is possible, if one is searching, and the subatomic world intervenes, to see eye to eye.

But does that describe UNENDING WONDERS OF A SUBATOMIC WORLD? Not at all! It’s text cribbed and rewritten from 706 pages of angst-ridden, slap-happy, run if you can’t leave ‘em laughing investigation on the questions of mad coincidence and improbable meaning that keep the denizens of this particular food chain universe eating and copulating as the Big Wheel they ride bumps along toward whatever end has captured its fancy. And while along for the ride, let’s at least have some fun with it in a perhaps legitimate Ferrari, Italian sunglasses that lend operatic vistas, with a woman running from impending nuptials and an unfolding history in soft-core surrealist art porn, her working homeless friend who is grieving the loss of her 1972 Impala, a band by the name of Orange Joe playing behind a female Elvis impersonator, a golf shop owner who wants something more in life than a pyramid-scheming wife and trysts at the Oasis with his accountant, and reflections on America the Beautiful which killed off its buffalo and fenced up its First Nations peoples all so Faith Hazy and Chance Hope would be able to one day ride the interstate from Valentine, Georgia to Little America, fueled by novelty, convenience and Faith’s patriotic determination to be a good consumer on someone else’s bankroll.

Doesn’t sound serious enough? UNENDING WONDERS OF A SUBATOMIC WORLD is sneaky that way.

UNENDING WONDERS OF A SUBATOMIC WORLD comes in a 6.0″ x 9.0″ package, perfect binding, 60# cream interior paper, black and white interior ink, 100# white exterior paper, full-color exterior. Yes! It’s a real book! Not fake. No downloads because the author wants you to hold it in your hands and ruminate.

Now, read an excerpt, then go, BUY THE BOOK!

Giving Ava a boost

Thursday, February 2nd, 2006

This came across one of the homeschool lists I’m on:

ava started her animations at 14, and now they are viewed by 300,000
unique visitors per month-

help her win an important contest- she wants to go to film school in
new york, and this would look great on her application!

homeschooling has allowed ava to express herself in ways that she would
never have the time or inclination for if she were busy trying to fit
into the public school system-

even if you don’t agree with her views, i would appreciate you
supporting my homeschooled daughter and helping her win this contest-

all you have to do is click on this link and view an animation-

http://ptc.cf.huffingtonpost.com/

please forward the link to others and help her win!

The politics are going to be right on target for the majority of the people who visit this blog. Give a click and help Ava out.

The face of war and deception. Had to have been rough for her sitting and editing the images to the music. It’s break and fold to the floor material. I would have been sobbing my guts out.

LSD not good for war

Friday, February 3rd, 2006

Well, I’m glad I checked out Boing Boing today. They’ve a lilnk to an old film showing what happens when Britsh troops are dosed with LSD. They forget how to operate equipment and collapse in laughter. They become incapable of making war and start climbing trees to feed the birds.

My faith in humanity is restored.

Upgrading - prepare for the uglies

Friday, February 3rd, 2006

Upgrading Wordpress. May be funky for a bit tonight.

Not-so-instant furniture (perhaps)

Saturday, February 4th, 2006

Well I’ve now in hand the “Instant Furniture” book the landlord was telling me about.  Published 1976.  It’s actually by a real arechitect/designer, Peter Stamberg, with designs by such people as Enzo Mari.  Using these designs, it’s said one should be able to make easily cheap furniture with only precut wood, glue and finishing nails.

The designs are very wood slat 70s.  Some of the designs would make nice furniture….if you used expensive wood and labored over a fine finsih.  But then it wouldn’t be the “instant furniture” promised.  Pour potato flakes in pot, add water (or not) and you have a meal. 

Projects like these always sound easier than they are.  When you can’t hammer a nail then what you’re going to come up with is a piney crate looking thing that isn’t sanded at the raw edges and gives you splinters.  You will try to sand and sanding the rough edges of pine with elbow grease and sanding paper is almost impossible (in my exeperience) and the edges will just look rough and weird and more probably the ends will start to splinter off in big pieces while you’re sanding.  I know, I’ve done it.  You will try to hide how piney and unsanded it looks by layering on the paint and painting will be tedious as it has all those sides because it’s all slats, and lots of slats are frustrating to paint in the same way a fence is frustrating to paint.

Enzo’s bookshelf looks like it would be prone to toppling over.  I’d scan an image of it but my scanner is out.  (As is my printer now. It died.  Drat.)  You could conceivably put together a crate-like couch but then you must be able to make the cushions.  One of the beds looks like it could be however a good one to go under a futon except it’s something you will not be able to disassemble into pieces when you decide to move and would be difficult to transport.  “But I will never move!  I have my dream apartment…just as soon as I get rid of the pigeons and mice!”  Yeah, well, furniture like this sounds especially good to young people setting up a household and they tend to move every few months.  Don’t they?  I know we did.  Chased from one place to another by pigeons and rats and bats and roaches.

I have visions of 1970s type people trying to make this furniture and sitting or lying down on it or putting a book on it and the piece collapsing.  They knew, building it, it was likely to colllapse, could feel it in their bones that what was needed was skill and good wood, but they kept hoping that once it was put together a miracle would happen and furniture would appear.

Sue Wilkinson Band

Saturday, February 4th, 2006

I’ve put in a link (sidebar) to Sue Wilkinson’s website, notta blog.  She and Marty have known each other for I don’t know how long, and me as well, but Marty used to play with her and they recorded together and she has done parts for him and he for her etcetera.  For those in Austin, Sue’s heading out there soon to play the Folk Alliance festival, part of Caroline Aiken’s Shakin’ Showcase.  Another woman with whom Marty used to play.  So if you’re in Austin and step up afterwards and say, “Hi, I don’t know Marty and Juli but they mentioned you,” she’ll say something like, “Wow!  It’s so nice to meet you!” But you won’t get a free drink as she has nothing to do with that.

First two paragraphs from Sue’s website.

The unforgettable sound of SUE G. WILKINSON is trance-like and highly melodic, powered by breathtaking vocals that can only be categorized as one of a kind. Blessed with an amazing vocal range, she has not only the power to blow down a brick house, but an astounding sense of versatility with the emotional capacity of Patti Griffin, Fiona Apple and Tori Amos combined.

Sue’s collaborations with Patrick O’Hearn (one of the founding fathers of the ambient movement and former bassist for Frank Zappa and Missing Persons) in the audio section.

I know one of my readers has a Zappa connection.

Sue has a powerful voice.   Brilliant singer and songwriter. And is sweet as can be. 

And as we’ve known each other forever she stepped up to the plate for me and said she’d send out info on the novel UNENDING WONDERS OF A SUBATOMIC WORLD in her newsletter and will be linking from her website.  For which I thank her!

The night Marty smashed his wrist he was playing a showcase with Sue for Cindy Lauper’s husband/manager, way back when.  He does the showcase and went out to find the tire on the car flat, he jacked the car up, started to change the tire and the jack broke and the car smashed down, his wrist caught between it and the tire and would have severed it had the tire not immediately popped out from underneath.  Pulverized the bone in his wrist entirely.  Not a good thing for a keyboardist and put him out of commission for a little while.

The world is a harsh (fill in the blank).  Friends make it easier.  Like Sue.

 

Thank you, Tommy

Saturday, February 4th, 2006

Thank you Tommy Dean of the League of Decency.  Reciprocating with a link to him as he went tout suite and purchased UNENDING WONDERS OF A SUBATOMIC WORLD and says he will put a link up from his League of Decency website. If you head over to Tommy’s, the song that comes up is one he and Marty recorded together, Jumpin’ at the Jubilee, is on the album Jump Yer Bones, by Mondo Heptet (I did the now defunct website and it was a good one). It’s a swing tune.  Tommy was playing Swing long before it came back into fashion (and swung back out).  His is what you’d call Revival Swing.  Drag the folks out from under the tables afterwards kind of thing. Not far from the reality. 

Have known Tommy forever and Marty and he have played together forever.  Tommy and Marty used to be writing partners and one of their songs is still getting air play in Japan.  Just got a BMI check for it recently.  Surprise.

 Tommy.  First there was the legendary Thermos Greenwood band, then Black Dick (Anne Richmond Boston of the Swimming Pool Q’s was with).  Tommy took Billy McPherson out of Bruce Hampton’s Late Bronze Age and Thomas Wolf from The Brains (god, the memories on that page) and thus was The League of Decency formed and Russ Malone went from playing with The League to Harry Connick Jr.

If Billy ever finds his way here, “Hi!”.   Haven’t seen him since he moved away from Atlanta.

Joe Walsh recorded one of Tommy’s songs a few years ago, No Peace in the Jungle, which was a hit in South Africa. 

Tommy’s brother Britt was an owner of The Point where I once waitressed, which is why I waitressed there, because it was the Dean’s place.  Because we all knew each other I figured they knew my faults (well, I didn’t know Britt yet) and no one was going to say, “Hey, you’re weird”.  Pizza by Candlelight, in the first chapter of the book, is an amalgamation of two restaurants and The Point, and yet it is not at all The Point.  The Point was a music club and had some great bands go through it.  Tommy Dean played there regularly as well on the weekends and it was packed.  Jam packed.  To the doors packed. Festive.  And some of the best feeling crowds.  The customers were happy and they were thus happy with the service, and we had a great wait staff so they had also every reason to be pleased with the service. On those nights onlythe occasional asshole, and people would leave at the end of the night in good spirits and the staff would go up and close out, in good spirits. 

 

They call it fiction for a reason

Sunday, February 5th, 2006

Just in case anyone’s wondering (and the question does inevitably come up and has)…as to SUBATOMIC WORLD,

“Is this fiction? Am I going to read and recognize anyone?”

Nope. Not even Marty or me.

The question has come up which is why I’m addressing it here.

T’is fiction. I don’t write in that way about people I know. That’s just not the kind of writing I do. I’m not that kind of a storyteller. SUBATOMIC WORLD isn’t that kind of a book. Now, characters are certainly built up on numerous people I’ve known but those are tiny bits and pieces of authentic experience and are not the character. People might prefer it if it was that kind of a book because then the game of picking out who you know could be done. But I’m not comfortable with that. People may seem to fit into “types” but each person’s world is vast and I only see a tip of the ice berg. I like to respect that in people. I know I only see a tip of the ice berg. People only see a tip of the ice berg with me. I only see the tip of the ice berg with me. I write idea and characters dressed up on things I’ve experienced but it is fiction.

The character of Faith Hazy for instance. Is 5 foot 11 and blond. How many women have I known who are 5 foot 11? A number, though most have been brunette. She has been partly taken care of by family Coca-Cola stocks. How many people have I known over the years who have been taken care of to some degree by Coca-Cola investments made by relatives? Several. And all wildly different people. (Seriously, we live in Atlanta. Everyone except us owns Coca-Cola shares.) At any rate, I know neither a Faith Hazy nor a Chance Hope. They’re ideas and bits and pieces that I’ve taken and fully realized into characters. Faith Hazy loves and adores and feasts upon everything that is consumer America. Chance Hope abhores all of it. They are Yin and Yang characters in the way that opposites-attract friends influence and help mold the other and also violently rip apart. I’ve certainly had relationships like that. Everyone has.

F’r instance, Chance Hope is not me though I abhore capitalist consumer America. And she’s not just a vehicle by which I can rip against capitalist consumer America. She had to be a fully realized character.

OK, for instance, the opening chapter. What would I have done if I’d been a Chance Hope and a Faith Hazy came walking into my work place, sans clothing, blood streaming down her forehead, and babbling on about her wedding? Would I have dropped everything and gone running off with her on a road trip? No, I would have tried to get her settled in as protected an area i could find and talked about getting to an emergency room or phoning 911 and would have told her she had some serious issues facing her and she was in no condition to go on a road trip. That’s what I would have said and done and gone home and said Christ you wouldn’t believe the trouble so-and-so is in now. And, hey, there’s the end of the story, the end of the book, there would be no SUBATOMIC WORLD. It might have made for another kind of book but not SUBATOMIC WORLD.

No, Faith and Chance, more than anything else, draw upon myth and the bits and pieces nearly everyone can find of themselves in myth.

That said, yes, I did see The Great Penguin when a youth. And it has been a lifelong curiosity for me and I did go on a road trip once explicitly to see if the Great Penguin was still out there, pre-internet days. And it isn’t and has never been the dried-up stuffed penguin sitting in the glass case at Little America. I used to be absolutely certain I saw the Great Penguin, but in all my life I’ve only spoken with one other person who said they might have seen it but they weren’t sure but were pretty sure. That gave me some reassurance, at the time, it did exist, and I believed it did exist. But I have never met anyone else who saw it and am now wondering if that person had only seen the stuffed penguin. I even wrote Little America about it several years ago and they had never heard of the Great Penguin. I have seen no postcards of it and the internet tends to be good about digging up postcards of strange things. It did take on a certain mythic air over the years, and in a way even more so now that I’ve only ever once met someone who “might” have seen the Great Penguin and said they were as blown away as I was. So, as things stand, unless someone comes forward and says the Great Penguin did exist, it may have been something that my mind conjured out of the desert. There may have only ever been puny penguins always sitting atop cupolas. Why I would look up and see a giant penguin in the middle of the Wyoming tundra, I don’t know.

Maybe so I could eventually write this book.

Anyway, I did make a cross country trip partly to look for the Great Penguin some years ago. It wasn’t there. And this isn’t that trip. Except for a couple of pieces. F’r instance. The Texas Fire Godzilla did happen but it wasn’t that trip and it wasn’t in Texas. And I had nothing to do with the fire. We did cross over Hoover Dam in the snow and it was wild and the car broke down but that was a totally different story not in this book. We did not play at a club in Boulder City. We sat in a small town, in a pizza place, waiting for the part for the car to be flown in while Grand Canyon Rangers celebrating a birthday talked about how they’d better get home before we were all snowed in, which worried us, of course. The car was fixed that afternoon and we drove on to the Painted Desert. Happy Mesa Valley did happen but it didn’t happen like it is given in the book and didn’t happen on that trip. The Happy Mesa Valley experience in the book is totally unrecognizable compared to the real life Happy Mesa Valley experience. And there was no Happy Mesa Valley at all.

I did begin this book believing the Great Penguin existed. Now I believe it may not have, despite what I saw.

I later read Admiral Byrd’s diary of his experience of nearly dying at Little America. The visionary part of that isolated experience of his clicked. His experiences, which he didn’t elaborate upon, may or may not have had in part to do with his nearly dying at Little America because he was being poisoned by the carbon monoxide, didn’t realize it, and refused rescuing. He struggled with that aspect of his journey for the rest of his life. That visionary, isolated time of Byrd’sat Camp Little America struck a chord and I could see taking it and building Faith’s and Chance’s journey around it. Which is what I did.

I forgot to mention it’s Faust

Wednesday, February 8th, 2006

Oh, I forgot to mention that UNENDING WONDERS OF A SUBATOMIC WORLD is Faust.

 Faith Hazy spirits away working homeless Chance Hope from her job.  Before they begin their journey (which Faith misrepresents to Chance, else she’d not go along with it in the first place) the following conversation takes place.  The opening speaker is Ms. Hazy, explaining herself:

 “You’re looking at me, I know, thinking is this what happens to little women raised on Barbie dolls with hair that magically grows out holes in their plastic, squeezable heads, so that when they become big little women what really matters are cosmetic options and the magic word is collagen. Total aberrations when tests prove if little Sally is offered the choice between a baby doll and an erector set, she goes for the diapers and mashed carrots every time. No, never mind that comparison. She’d take the erector set. What was I thinking? Still, at the age of three they take away the baby doll, give you a Barbie and tell you to meet your potential, be all you can be. If Barbie could do it, you can do it. But man, what assets Barbie has that you don’t! That’s why she’s charging up ladders of salaried ambition replete with confidence and drive. And that’s why you’re a failure, because they didn’t tell you every time you squeezed Barbie’s head you were squishing out your dreams and refilling your head with theirs. That’s why she’s an achiever, because she ate all the dreams that got squeezed out of you so she’s Lady Macbeth and you’re, well, you’re a waitress. Barbie would never be a waitress unless it was a plotted step in her long good life plan. While you’re a waitress because your life plan has failed.”

 “Plus I don’t have Mattel backing me up.”

 Stalwart Chance, it was true, had taken to reading tales of great failures in order to remind herself of the value in endeavor above achievement; the more unapproachable the goal, the more heroic one’s efforts, albeit stupid. She had come close to convincing herself that failed life plans were equivalent to better goals, which could give one a reason to be proud.

 At the moment, Chance didn’t mind being called a failure as she’d found the fork.

 Faith took the corporate attack cue. “Look around you, Chance. There are lots and lots of people out there with homes, condominiums, cars with CD players, air conditioning, talk-back burglar alarms,” lives with buffer zones like the inflatable air cushions in their cars—so, what, and the point is?—”like it or not, it’s a divided world in which the have’s eschew the have not’s,” which Chance didn’t really mind as she preferred not to be continually reminded of how little she had. No VCR, no cable television, no socialized medicine, “unless the have not’s are waiting on them, then they’re in their place. Which is another reason you’re a failure; no one’s going to start to let you up to the batting plate when you’re wearing, you know, the uniform of a bat boy and not a real player. But for a moment there today, you were a real player. When I put that hundred-dollar bill on the table. And look what happened.”

 Look what had happened. Chance had lost her job, and her gold ’72 Impala, but had found a knife, a fork and spoon. On a golf course. A place where people with clubs that have either wooden or metal heads hit a small white ball with a cratered surface into eighteen holes, one at a time, not all at once, each hole occupying a different section of a course (golf course, dinner course, place settings, Chance mused) that has artificial or natural obstructions by which one may test their skill, though some have so little talent that a challenge of any sort becomes an impossibility, and their dream of making a hole-in-one the kind of impossible dream of which the late Sammy Davis Jr. sang; and singing of the Impossible Dream, for Everyman, he had attained what the rye grass variety of Everyman considered the impossible: a hit single.

It’s a theme that runs throughout.  Faith Hazy, hell bent on consuming and the question of how much this may corrupt Chance, or if it is indeed corruption at all or Chance being finally granted some of life’s basic needs.  And Chance wrestling with pitchforks of conscience prodding her to do and don’t do, take the bait or not. She’s in an untenable position, Faith having helped her out of a job.  There are many reasons why Chance would take the bait and many reasons why not.  Just about every base is covered between beginning and end, with Faith provided a sort-of No Fault Insurance because this isn’t a diatribe, these are characters and the grease that keeps the machine of the duo of Faith and Chance running is a fragile friendship.  The relationship is a complex one.   Despite that friendship,  the haves versus the have-nots is to some degree represented in their relationship, Faith even sometimes representing herself to Chance as her virtual employer.    There are gray areas, ambiguities.  And Faith, frankly, is just one step ahead of Chance.  She’s got money, but it’s insecure money that may or may not be hers, which could disappear at any moment. 

 

As an author, I loved both the characters and wasn’t going to shamelessly and unsympathetically nail Faith Hazy to the wall.  Doesn’t work that way.  Couldn’t be that way with these characters as they’re both caught in the spokes of the same wheel. 

When your ISP causes you to lose it that doesn’t speak well of them

Wednesday, February 8th, 2006

I’ve been working the last couple of days on updating several  websites I manage and have another website I’m supposed to be working on.   I still have to reformat the damn computer (put it off while preparing UNENDING WONDERS) which will be its own hell and the printer went out and the scanner is still not working.  And the CD burner is of course not working because I put off reformatting the computer after realizing the initial formatting was bad.  So this morning when I found our DSL was out and I was relegated to dial-up (which we’d not yet configured on this computer) I put off losing it until this afternoon when faced with the prospect of calling Earthlink and since every time I call Earthlink it means I’m on the phone for a full week, a full week, trying to get anything done, well, I lost it.  Making coffee I banged the pan on the stove which sent water all over it and I railed on about how I could not do this, not now, not in the middle of everything, I could not face a week on the phone battling with Earthlink, especially with the prospect of possibly having to get a new modem which would mean weeks of my being on dial-up, because worst-case scenario is always what one gets with Earthlink.  I used to think maybe we should switch over to BellSouth but I had read what a pain it is to do and we’re in the middle of our contract with Earthlink too.  And now that damn BellSouth is one of those talking about wanting to charge companies for delivery of content over their phone lines, well, I’m not too crazy about BellSouth either. 

And I hate, absolutely hate Wordpress’ new built-in WYSIWYG editor. I hate it! Hate it! I have to go back in several times and fix links and paragraph breaks. I’m sure I can cut the thing off but I’ve not bothered with doing so yet.

So Marty made the call to Earthlink.  Because my last several times with them over the past year have meant a week of phone calls each time and each time they are the ones screwed up but it takes me forever to find someone who will admit it and won’t try to make me do something stupid like emptying all my email folders.  (Yeah, can you beat that?  One person wanted me to dump all my email several months ago.  I told him he was nuts and after several more phone calls the problem was finally resolved.)  So, because I went on a tirade, losing it over the idea of being on the phone with Earthlink a week, Marty made the call.

As it turns out Earthlink this time said that there is a DSL problem and that Atlanta is out all day today because of something BellSouth did that completely shut down DSL for Atlanta.  Or so we were told.  So at least it’s not the modem. And I am a bit mollified imagining all the others in Atlanta today who were throwing fits over the prospect of dealing with their DSL line.

I am still in a hell of a foul temper (to be honest, computer and internet contribute, aren’t the only reason, but are the easiest to rant on about).  H.o.p. ironically tries to cheer me by lugging over one of the BellSouth directories (the kid is psychic, he has no clue what phone directories are, he’s never had to use one) and though he has no interest in sports at all he has made pictures of baseballs and bowling balls and bowling pins and is telling me about how these pages deliver sports information and he opens them and his pictures of baseballs and bowling balls and bowling pins drop out and I am supposed to laugh at the joke.  He says he got the idea from watching Arthur singing about having fun isn’t hard if you have a library card.

He has been doing a stellar job reading the past two weeks, by the way.  And last night was actually begging to read one of his books with me and his dad.  “Come on, let’s read!  Let’s read!”  And last night he finished said book and we’re getting another in that series today. 

“Mom, I’m glad you’re my mom.  And if you weren’t I would want to visit you every day.”

Thanks, H.o.p. 

Am not noting that for warm fuzzy points.  I’m noting it because I think it’s cute he would want to visit me every day if I wasn’t his mom.

Other than that, the only vaguely uplifting thing over the past few days was Coretta Scott King’s funeral and remarks on the state of the nation made by certain individuals like Rev. Joseph Lowery.  Today do a Google on it and what comes up is one news site and web site after another having a hissy fit over the comments, saying they were out of place, that you’re not supposed to do that at funerals.  Blah, blah, blah. They sure do know how to occupy space, don’t they.  Everybody’s space. 

I’m going to go have a growling contest with H.o.p. now and try to dispense a little of my discontent in a way he will find amusing.

“H.o.p., let’s have a growling contest.”

GROOOOOOOOOOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWLLLLLLLL.

He won.  He growls good.  He runs off smiling, very happy about the growling contest. 

I’m still in a miserable temper.

The Cadence Chamber Duet - Just in case you think Baroque isn’t exciting

Thursday, February 9th, 2006

At the moment I’m listening to the most extraordinary CD. It’s the Cadence Chamber Duet. She is Olena Yergiyeva, the violin part of the team. He is Ivan Yergiyev, and he plays the accordion.

I don’t always listen to music while writing because though music can fuel it can also falsely substitute mood which isn’t making it into words. But I do listen to music during certain points in drafts and editing, and what I listened to with UNENDING WONDERS OF A SUBATOMIC WORLD (see sidebar) was baroque. There were several pieces in particular that I listened to at points during the final edit, and one of those pieces was Albioni’s Adadgio in G, which though beautiful is such a popularly recorded piece, interpretations almost all uninspiring and mediocre, that I can go years without hearing it and feel no deprivation. However, recently, I signed up for a membership at the Classical Music Archives because I wanted access to a number of different pieces without purchasing whole CDs, and among those recordings was Cadence’s interpretation of Adagio in G.

That is how I came across Cadence.

Much of life is chore and agony, but I still get goosebumps when I come upon something exciting musically. And I played Cadence’s Adagio in G repeatedly. At first I sat and listened. And H.o.p. was fascinated as well. Then introducing it to Marty I was on my feet, the music pushing me around the room. “Listen, listen…listen to that voice…it’s amazing!” This beautiful, pure violin with this gutsy accordion, sometimes brazen, sometimes sneaky. Bold music. Pure feeling music. I’d never heard anything like it before. Completely new to my ears, this accordion chiming, chirping, wheezing, grinding, buzzing, singing beside the violin.

Ivan was made an Honored Artist of Ukraine in 2002. Olena is principal violist in the Odessa Philharmonic Chamber Orchestra. Ivan is “considered a pioneer of modern Ukraninian accordion playing,” and took Grand Prix at the Orpheus Prize Competition in 1995 at Antwerp. They took first prize in 2000 at the Melody for Two Hearts Competition in Kiev,first prize in 1999 at the Vogttlandishcer Musikwettbeverbe and 2nd prize in 1999 at the Citta di Castelfidadardo Competition.

Right now I’m listening to an accordion solo, fifth song on this CD, “Schtehedrin, Hommage a Albeniz”. And I could listen to it, as with the Albioni, 40 times over. A voice, not just notes. A real voice within the music.

I’m still at a loss for how to describe this music. Fabulous, grinding grit and majesty and pathos. Ah, no shame to it at all. Can you imagine what I mean when I say music in which there is no shame, no retiring, no placing one’s self behind and inferior to the song. Kubrick’s “Barry Lyndon” probably best captured standard baroque when it is a sense of the inescapable machine and the tragedy and sometimes beauty of it. But this takes baroque into an entirely different, human, break-the-machine realm. But it’s not just baroque that Cadence plays. I’ve never cared before for Shastocovich, but they have two pieces on the CD and now I can hear Shastacovich’s voice and believe it, at least as interpreted by Cadence.

At least that is what I hear in Cadence, music that breaks the machine. Music that you could play when you’re on your way to meeting and dealing with some of the harshest moments life throws in your path in its most rigorous this-is-inescapable-destiny-for-all times, because this combination of accordion and violin pulls one outside the machine, and gives individual dignity. Here, as I listen a sad, brave moment is immediately followed with humor, the accordion and violin working in tandem, the violin scratching raw over these accordion bursts.

From the age of 7 to 14 I studied violin. My instructor for some reason expected me to do something with it. I supposedly had a very nice voice on the violin. I won a scholarship out of the blue and went to Brevard one summer, but violin wasn’t my life. It hardly ranked as a tiny part of it. I didn’t plan on playing violin as a career and I couldn’t make myself pursue music because I didn’t see where I could inject a voice in chamber music or the orchestra, and I didn’t want to just play notes, I wanted to say something. I didn’t excell…which I suppose is one reason my instructor kept insisting I should pursue a career in it, ironically enough. Because I never practiced, I never touched it, and still managed to I guess express a certain something. I don’t know. “If you’d only practice,” I was told week after week. I’m still befuddled at how eager my instructor (first chair of the local orchestra) and the head of the music department at the college (and conductor of the local orchestra) were to keep me studying violin. I knew how inferior I was, yet when I was 14 and told them I was quitting, they both pulled me into the office for a meeting, insistent I continue, openly frustrated and even angry that I was quitting. I couldn’t imagine why they were angry with me. I was completely befuddled. What in the world did they expect me to do with the violin that they were so adamant I keep at it? I felt totally incompetent, as if I was guessing at and faking everything I played.

I did miss it to a degree. My violin was an ancient one that buzzed and the back kept falling off of it and my instructor kept repairing it for me. I had played from when I was seven and for years afterwards, no longer having an instrument, I played air violin when listening to baroque. I once had the privilege of playing a Stradivarius and had no idea how an instrument could almost sing of its own accord. It was a couple of years after I’d quit the violin. I played one note on the strad and was so overcome by the ease, the naturalness, the purity of the sound that I put the violin down. The owner tried to get me to play more but I refused.

Had I been exposed to music such as this I might have continued. Though I might have instead picked up the accordion and dropped the violin. But I guess I couldn’t leave music completely. So I married a musician. Though not one who was classically trained. I didn’t want anything more to do with the world of classically trained musicians.

H.o.p. had never been told I played violin, and I don’t play much violin music around here, so I was surprised when at the age of five he said he would like to learn violin. He wasn’t at a stage yet to really be interested in taking lessons and said so himself. Nowadays he vacillates back and forth between violin and accordion (believe it or not). He likes the sound of both. And though Marty plays accordion, H.o.p. has never heard or seen him play it because he only plays it at Cajun gigs, so that has not been an influence. So it makes me wonder about a natural pairing of the accordion voice with that of the violin. As Marty says, you get that magic of accordion and violin in Cajun music. When he started playing accordion in the studio it was doubling string lines or using it as part of a string arrangement. A keyboardist, as I mentioned, Marty eventually picked up accordion for cajun gigs and has played it now for about 15 years. When I played him Cadence, he was floored. As with me, he’d heard nothing like this before.

Cadence doesn’t have any place online where they’re currently selling CDs, which is too bad because chamber players and accordion players in America ought to be exposed to and listening to this. There is a natural connection between the two instruments that’s magical.

Anyway, there’s not much on the web about Cadence so I’m putting this up so there will be one more thing about them. And if you’re interested, I’m certain if you write them (link to the page with info on and their email) you could arrange to purchase a CD. There are also sound files you can subscribe for free to play. And you ought to be interested. Because the music of Cadence is good for the soul music. Inspiring. Gorgeous. Spirited. Comic. Bold and absolutely riveting music.